The Fear of Fear
By Ana-La-Rai
Last week I had a powerful experience with my own fears. My Guides have asked me to share...
I am pretty good about facing things "head on" and dealing with my own triggers and issues. In these past few months deep triggers and wounds have been surfacing . Like most I too avoid some issues , my fear of the dentist is one of them.
As a child our dentist would check around with dental tools and ask "does this hurt?". If I said "yes, it hurts" he would dig deeper and the pain would accelerate. I grew to be terrified of going to the dentist! And to make matters worse, my Mom would not listen when I shared my experience. I was not allowed to change dentists until I was 16 years old.
So, all these adult years I have gone to the dentist, had fillings, a crown, a root canal, always in absolute fear with full body memories activated.
In the last year I noticed my gums begin to recede and more fears came up. Every time I looked in the mirror I worried I would lose all of my teeth! Finally, this year I realized I needed to clear this fear. With the help of a great friend I cleared enough to actually book a dental appointment with a new "awake & conscious" dentist.
So last week the dreaded appointment date approached another huge fear arose. I found ants in my home and feared they might be carpenter ants or termites . My handywoman was booked to come the morning before the dentist. I was freaked! OMG, what if I had an infestation? What would it cost? Could I save my house? What if, what if and more what if....
The night before I hardly slept. I suspected bills in the thousands of dollars, feared losing my home and of course being told I would lose my teeth.
On the day my handywoman shared she had worries about the ants too, but she opened it all up and we found an ant nest. No water damage, no rot, not infestation, just some ants under the door frame. Whew! What a relief.
Then came the dentist. As I filled out the paperwork my body was shaking. Shame rose up in me when I had to answer questions like "when was your last appointment?" I had vowed this time to tell the dentist of my fears and move through it all.
Well the hygienist and the dentist were amazing! I could feel all my fears dissolving for the first time in my life as I sat in the dental chair.
They took x-rays, told me everything they were doing and then did a thorough exam.
I had one filling leaking that needed repair and another with a little chip. Then he told to return every 6 months for cleaning.
What???? What about the bad news? When would I lose all my teeth ? The dentist thought never. He said I saw in good shape orally, especially for not seeing a dentist in 5 years. I could hardly believe it!
When I paid my bill, I booked an appointment to get the fillings repaired. It all felt so different.
As I drove home I had "aha" moments and clarity. I saw how my fear kept me in more fear and inaction. I realized the "what if" was 10 times worse than either reality I faced that day.
We all face difficult situations in life, BUT often our fear controls us. It prevents us from living in the now. It prevents us from making good & sound decisions. In speaking with clients this week many have been paralyzed or limited by their own fears.
So embrace your fear. Deal with the issue at hand. Bring in the Light of Source to assist you.
Remember fear is in your mind but your heart is filled with Love. Let Love guide you. Don't let fear limit your life.
Face everything and rise!
Ana-La-Rai